boys 😕❤️

so , i have had this with a boy , he has perfect blue eyes , he is fit , he is very very attractive , and we had been fwb for a lil over a year , (wasnt really fwb , we would just make out , handjobs, fingering, blowjobs, that kind of stuff) and then this year , he asked to make it official , of course i said yes because this whole time , fwb and everything, i always had feelings for him. for him to tell me he had feelings for me , made me so so so happy, but then a couple days later , he broke up with me. I still wish we could’ve lasted . Then, i met the best guy ever. he was sweet , he would write random paragraphs about how much he loved me and how much he would love to buy me the biggest stuffed bears (because i love huge stuffed animals ) and he would never end a conversation without , “i love you more” and then, two months later , i was in the best mood i have ever been in, my friends had each giving me stuffed animals and it was the best feeling, and then in my last period i got a text from him . and he said ,” tbh *****, you deserve better than me” and that was that , he broke up with me. i have never been so sad. my face was red and immediately i was crying for two hours straight. wanna know why ? because this boy was the best thing i had ever had , and he was all i ever wanted. and he left . i asked him why because the reason he told me , (we won’t see each other as often since i’ve transferred schools) that has never been a problem in the past. when i asked him , he said it wasn’t his decision, and he had no say in it, and whenever i ask he says he can’t tell me , and it sucks. honestly i just really wanna know what’s wrong with me . please respond