Sigh....

Alright. My boyfriend dumped me last week but I haven’t seen him. I’m over him.... I think. But.... today one of my guy friends came over and we “ hung out “ all day. We talked, kissed, hugged, all that stuff. like.... idk why. There’s really no emotion behind it. We both just kinda needed someone. Even if it was just for the night. Neither one of us are looking for anything with anyone right now. But Monday, I’m meeting with my ex to give him his stuff back. I’m so scared that it’s going to hurt really bad to see him.... especially happy without me. The boy I hung out with borrowed one of my old T-shirt’s bc he was hot and he said he was gonna give it back when I gave my ex his stuff. Kinda petty, I know. But anyways, I told this boy I was scared it was going to break my heart all over again to see him happy without me and he offered to walk with me.... idk if it’s something I should do on my own or what.... idk. Is what I did tonight hoeish? Ugh. We made out and touched all up on each other and shit. That’s it though.