Have you ever ...

Not to be in anyone’s business but if you dont mind answering please do ... has anyone ever kept their first child but aborted the second because they felt like 2 children would be too much ? My boyfriend ( father of my first child as well ) thinks that I should abort because he thinks it’s going to be a struggle with two kids .. I haven’t really told anyone but 2 people other than him and I’m scared to get abortion because I would feel so guilty that I killed my second but kept my first 💔