My loss

At about 5 almost 6 weeks I had a miscarriage and as it is my first pregnancy I kind of blame myself for not going to the doctors soon enough as my blood type isn't compatible with the baby. I also feel happy but sad at the same time and I hate it because idk why I feel as happy as I do even tho I feel like braking down every second of the day in tears. I'm a emotional mess and I don't know how to handle myself. My husband isn't handling it to well either he doesn't talk to me much sense it has happened and I hate it it makes me more sad 😭.