3 months postpartum- look more open?

I had my daughter vaginally June 21, 2017. I know it’s going to take some time to be back to my old self but I’m scared I’m stuck this way forever. I decided to take a look down south and I’ve noticed that my vaginal opening “stays open” and looks wider than it used to. When I say it stays open I mean I can see the walls of my vagina. I also have a lot of purple skin around the area an an annoying hemorrhoid 😕 It all looks so bad now that I’m scared my husband hates it. Will it be this way forever now? Will it get worse if I have more kids? If t does get better, how long did it take?