I need help and advice from this community. I dont know where else to turn. I havd been married for 8 years now and it was an arranged marriage at the age of 18. I was naive and gullible. I fell in love with him and believed him. Within two years the marriage was a disaster with him being obsessed with porn and talking to other girls, hiding things, being distant from my family, then the beating started and eventually we split for a few months. I was in love and scared of being alone-divorce is not encouraged in my culture and second marriages are even rarer. I was around 20 and didn't want to be alone my whole life so I begged him to come back. He did. It got worse. I got depressed and suicidal because I didn't know what to do or who to go to for help. Now 8 years have past, we had good times in between but a lot of bad as well. About 3/4 years I caught him using dating app. He apologized. We have a baby now, wasn't exactly planned but wasn't stopped either. I love her she is my rock in this world. My relationship with my husband hasn't improved. He stopped having sex with me once i got pregnant and hasnt since, not that sex was any good but it was something. I tried talking to him about it but he doesn't seem to care. Beating has stopped but hes still controlling. He controls money and where i go. I know my situation could be worse. I dont know what to do. Now not only am I scared of being alone im also scared of my baby growing up without a father. He is so good with her. Im scared and alone. Im stuck and im getting sadder by the day. My baby is the only thing that makes me smile i dont let her see my pain i cant. I tried counseling he wont go. I dont know anymore.