stuck

I go back and forth about wanting to have another baby and wanting to lose some weight first, I'm not like heavy heavy..

160lbs.. wanna lose like 20-30. I was 137 when I got pregnant..

gained 30lbs.. lost almost all of it.. by 6 months.. then I got sick

( thought I had MS) had to quit my job, couldn't drive, couldn't hardly move off the couch..it was awful! I was like that for about 4 months, it turned out to be Aspertaime poisoning, (side note: aspertaime is the devil do NOT consume it!) and gained about 15lbs back.

Couple months later I went through a divorce and added the rest back to where I'm at now. Im just miserable with myself. :(