implantation bleeding ?

implantation bleeding ? with the time iv'e been ttc, im 99% sure this is not. im sure we all can relate, that with any symptom we have we relate it with a bfp 🙏 i see so many stories on here that give me hope. i wish all of you be blessed with your bundles of joy. although i doubt this is a bfp symptom, hopefully i jinx myself. ive had this in the past, turns out to be old period discharge leading to ugly af. ever since my dad past a year ago, i live with the heart ache of not giving him a grandchild. the day he past literally an hour before i told my bf i would be so devastated if my dad didnt get to see me have children. im even more serious about this. Making healthy life changes, to make my mom a grandma as she deserves. fingers crossed that i can say finally after all the waiting i got my bfp.