So it’s my birthday next weekend I’m turning 21 and I always reflect on my life to see where I’m going and whatnot. And I realized that all my life I’ve never had anyone like me or anything like that. I try to stay positive and tell myself my time would come and stuff but it’s really hard watching all your friends be happy and experience ‘love’ and just be the ugly duckling.

I told myself maybe it’s because I was over weight (size 18). But I started dressing better and taking batter care of myself and stuff and it’s almost like I’m the most repulsive thing on earth.

This kinda went from a question to a rant I’m sorry. But what do I do. How do I deal with feeling like this.