MC number two

I had a second miscarriage this year and my dr decided to run tests on the products of conception to rule out any issues. I got a call yesterday that the results were back and the specialist is going to call me next week. While the nurse was reading over the results to herself with me on the phone she told me it was a boy. I didn’t want to know that, in my mind this was just a bunch of cells and too early to call it anything. I know not everyone believes that but it made it slightly easier to deal with in my mind. I am so mad at her for taking that slight comfort way from me. She didn’t ask me if I wanted to know.

I didn’t tell my husband what she said, I asked him, if he could, would he want to know what the baby would have been and he said no. Just because I wasn’t given the choice doesn’t mean he shouldn’t have the choice of knowing.