Just want to cry!!

Hey ladies,

I used to have a close friend that was in the same boat as me trying to have a baby!! Well her dream came true and now me I'm still struggling. After 2 lap surgeries, 3 miscarriages and now going through my first round of ivf after discovering I have natural killer cells. I'm in my 2ww and up and until now I have been calm and positive.

Anyways after visiting my friend and congrulating her on her baby few weeks ago since then I haven't heard from her because I believe it was her turn to approach me. So she rang and stupid me answered the call and spoke to her. I felt like I couldn't confide in her my problems as she has a close relationship with my sisters now and would blab everything as I'm trying to keep hush about my ivf journey and she was more interested in saying oh I believe ur sister in law had another baby which this burnt me as I've been struggling for so long when I can't even have one and she is on to her second.

Anyway last night I didn't sleep at all anxiety took over and I was stressed in tears and today I still feel sick in the tummy.

In a week I found out if I'm pregnant.

I feel like I have stuffed up because stupid me reads to much into stuff and don't know how to let go of ppl's thoughts.

Anyone else felt stressed in there 2ww and got a bfp??

My husband knew I was stressed last night and was like why u doing this to your self.