Possible trigger :(

I'm just just lost and heartbroken. I got pregnant for the first time ever in August, my husband and I were over the moon excited! I ended up miscarrying at 8 weeks. We waited 1 full cycle and tried again after, found out I got pregnant last month!! This past week I've been spotting so of course it freaked me out but I tried to stay positive. Well last night I started bleeding bright red and having clots. I'm pretty sure I am losing my rainbow at 4w4d. I just don't understand. I'm only 23 and have no major health issues. This is just not fair. All I want to do is become a mother but for the second time in 3 months, the opportunity is getting taken away from me. I thought the first one was just bad luck but 2? I'm starting to worry if it's me...it'll be a year of trying in January so once the new year starts, we might consider getting ourselves tested to get some answers. My heart is breaking. We were waiting until thanksgiving to break the news to our families since we live out of state. Only my husband and my best friend even know I was pregnant this time 😞