So I am coming here anonymous and I am not going to be able to answer all the comments but I will read them and take them in consideration.

So I am 20 and I haven't never dated any guy. It's not really because I can't find anyone. I can and I have found many guys that love me and I like too.

So there comes the problem. Since I was a kid I have never been close to my mother. She is really strict and really controlling. I was not allowed to have a phone until I left her house at 18 to live with my father. So when I was 12 I had my first period. And I told her (most awkward moment of my life) and after I told her she was talking to me. Almost what some people would call sex talk. So here is what until this day I remember. She told me that I was not allowed to have sex with any guy and neither date. I am not exaggerating. Maybe she was trying to scare me, she said that if I had a boyfriend she would kill me. And she said she would put people after me to know where I am going who I am with etc. I have a little sister and she is living with me now. I know I am an adult now but what she told me really hunts me. Until now I don't want to date because she would be a bitch with my man and you know the mil drama. also in my family they want to have a "parent blessing/acceptation" so I would have to talk to her and basically ask her if she likes him etc. I don't know what to do. I want to do my life and have my husband one day but I don't know how to deal with that. Any suggestion?