I'm so done. stuck and alone.

I'm so tired of feeling and being treated like nothing by my husband. I know I need to leave or get help for my depression, anxiety, and suicidal attempts but I literally have no way. I don't know what I'm supposed to do or how to do it. my husband has alienated me from all my friends and family. he moved us 1800 miles away and I'm stuck here with him and his brothers. I'm not allowed to work or have friends or go out. soni literally sit in the house all day and clean up after 4 other people. and get yelled at if it's not dome right. my husband tests me like shit And puts me down constantly and blames everything on me which isn't true. I want to go back home but because of my husband I can't afford to pay myself to get there and even if I did get there I have nowhere to stay. I've already asked the family I have left. they said no because my husband has forced me to abandon them without saying a word and now they don't trust me to not do it again. also I have no car and my credit is horrible so I can't exactly get a good job or place because my hometown relies a lot on credit. I'm not even allowed to go to church and we just moved here a few weeks ago and I've never been in this state I don't even know where to begin to look for help and everything I've googled nothing will help. I don't want to be in this state or with my husband anymore. I want to kill myself every day and I'm tired of being numb. I just want to feel worth something for once. I've talked to him and he says it's bull and he doesn't do any of that and blames me saying I disrespect him and treat him like crap because I don't talk to him or have sex. I can't open up to someone I don't trust! I'm at such a loss and it seems I only have 1 way out and even tho I don't want to... it's looking better and better every day.