Harassment of the Day

I just wanted to get this off my chest. The other day, my abusive ex messaged me for the first time in 3 years. It made me so angry because I remembered everything I let him do to me and how powerless he made me feel. He used to beat me, force me to have sex and say so many horrible things. It's taken years for me to feel worth it again.

Today I went to the store. This guy blocked me from getting to my car and started talking about how he just got out of jail. He served 14 years because he "got angry" one day and made mistakes. Scared me so bad because he was leaning against my door and I was afraid of angering him to get away. I froze. He kept talking, saying all these either off the wall things or more thing ors to scare me about his past. He kept playing with something in his jacket pocket that looked like a gun. He kept hitting on me and telling me what a pretty girl I was and how well he'd treat me.

I was completely frozen in fear and didn't know what to do. Finally he moved enough to let me get in my car but then started asking for a ride to the library because he's trying to help get his cousin out of jail for kidnapping. I was able to make an excuse and get the heck outta there.

Scared me so badly. I can't shake it now. I'm so mad that I was so powerless again. I hate that feeling. I was just so scared of what he might do if he "got mad" again.

Any advice or suggestions or anything? This is the second time this month I've been stopped by a stranger blocking my car. I'm pretty small so I guess I seem like an easy target?