I can't pump anymore. I just can't.

My son has refused to latch. I've tried since the day he was born. I got nipple guards, went to classes, took fenugreek....I did all the stuff I'm supposed to do. I have a fantastic spectra pump. I've pumped and pumped and pumped for the last 2 and a 1/2 months. It's so damned inconvenient. My milk is beginning to deplete no matter what I do.... and frankly, it's becoming very painful to pump. I dread it. I actually begin to cry a little bit when it gets close to time to pump. I've been supplementing with formula since he was 3 days old and it's head to become more and more and more. For the 1st month, it was about 70% breastmilk to 30% formula. Now it's about 85% formula.... I guess i should feel guilty, but honestly I don't. I gave birth naturally in a water bath. He's a healthy, happy lil man. I kept up with it for this long....but I just can't anymore. He sleeps great... the only thing I've lost sleep over is pumping. It's

over.