So me and my ex broke up over 4 months ago because I cheated and he was abusive. But we tried to forgive each other and at least be friends. long story short tonight he called wanting to talk at 3 am. I had a feeling it was a set up but I went anyway cuzI do still love him. Third worst night of my life. So we start talking and everything is ok. I told him I wasn't ready for another relationship and I was enjoying being single. Plus he got another girl pregnant 2 weeks after we broke up. well he asked about my sexual life and I was honest. I hooked up with a couple guys. he acted like he was cool and like he wanted to have sex. I told him no but he refused to listen. knowing him it's easier to give in than fight so I was going to have sex with him but he got THAT look in his eye. I seen it last time. he beat my ass. this fool put his fingers in my vagina and said ima put my whole hand in and he meant it. once I started crying thats when he told me his plan. he said unhurt him so hes gonna hurt me back. he said he doesnt know why I fell for it and come outside. he said he doesn't give a shit about me. I finally got my phone and called 911. when he seen that he went ballistic. he grabbed the phone and started choking me. I tried to run but he had me by the throat. when they called back he got distracted and instated fighting. I finally got away with my pants off and started running and screaming. I think it spooked him cuz he threw all my stuff out and drove off. I didn't call the cops again but now I'm laying here scared as shit. idk if hes coming back. or if hes gonna destroy my car. ive spent 4 years with this guy and he knows all my secrets. he knows things that could ruin my life. I still love him and I don't want to see him in trouble but I can't live my life looking over my shoulder. I don't want to deal with the legal system either. but idk what to do...I'm laying on my couch now scared to go to sleep cuz every noise i hear I think its him. he's ways told me locks whether on the phone or doors mean nothing to him. I'm so tired and confused and scared...