I am feeling sad and depressed today. I have what I call the"baby blues". TTC#1 in your 40's is probably the hardest thing I have EVER done in my life. Why is it that I get on the <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android">glow app</a> for advice and support, and i get so sad and depressed somtimes? Don't get me wrong, I am very happy for ALL of the women on here who have reached their pregnancy goals or who already have children(especially the women over 40).I just don't know what to do. It would mean the WORLD to me to have my first baby with my man. I would LOVE to take on the challenge of multiples. I sometimes think that motherhood isn't meant for me. Why I do I feel this way? Please forgive me if I'm making someone else sad, I just need to vent. I could use a friend right now.