How to cope


I'm not legally married. Me and my bf been together for 7 years. I have a son he adopted when he was 5. He treats him so well. Recently we been having problems in our relationship. I found him cheating. I took him back and gave him a second chance. Everything was going good for couple months after. I was starting to gain my trust back. And now I found out that he's cheating again with the same girl. I cant help but feel so stupid for trying to gain my trust and make my family work out. I love him don't get me wrong. But how much more can I take? I told him to leave. It's been two weeks since he left and not one time has he tried to make it work. He simply told me that he doesn't have feelings for me anymore, doesn't want to be with me anymore, and he is miserable in our relationship. But how can you be miserable in our relationship when I have done nothing wrong and gave him everything he wanted. I know it's time for me to give up our relationship but how can I? I'm so in love with him that I can't see what he doing to me. Apart of me wants to let go and move on, apart of me doesn't. My son ask when is daddy coming home everyday and I have no clue what to say. I just try to hold my tears back and cry myself to sleep. Wondering how can you all of a sudden wake up one morning and walk out on your family and our home. I want closure but I know I can't get closure from him. I try my hardest not to read our old text messages or call him but it's getting unbearable for me. I'm just hoping he will come home and make things right. But I know it may be a long shot. But same time I don't think I can take so much more of him cheating on me.