I’ve gained almost 100LBS in a year...

I want to start off by saying glow, don’t delete this. I’m not suicidal lol I’m just venting.

I’ve gained 70 pounds in the last year.... diagnosed with PCOS, hypothyroidism....I have an addiction to food and portions. I barely care if it tastes amazing, I care how much I get..,.. I know I have a problem but it’s hard. And a lot of people tell me that’s an excuse, stop using it as a crutch but it’s a serious mental issue. I’m 20 years old and I’ve been doing this since I was eight. 12 years of gorging myself and I feel helpless against this issue. I can’t talk to anyone in my family because they all talk behind my back, like I’m a child.