F**k everything

Well I was so sure this was my month. I really was . my period was 4 days late and I kept testing waiting on a line or even a faint line and I got nothing... Not even a shadow. I'm done. I'm f*****g done. I am. A mc and 8 months later I'm done. Im tracking nothing. I'm not using opks and I'm not cm or cp checking Im done. I would love nothing more than to have a child but I'm not trying anymore. If it happens it happens. I might be weak and I might be emotional but know what? Nope. I'm happy with my boyfriend and were fine how we are. If I get a child I get one and I'll be happier for it 🤗 good luck ladies. I hope you all get your bfps soon. I'm out.