*update* I want to thank each and every one of you for your supportive words. You all got me through this, and quick I might add. My heart no longer feels like it’s shattered to a million pieces because I know I did NOTHING wrong and this wasn’t in my control. He’s just an insecure asshole who never deserved me and I can finally see him for who he really is. I’ve learned and I’ll continue to grow. You all have given me a lot to think about and I know I deserve A LOT better than him and I’m hopeful for the future. I’m definitely taking some time for myself right now and I may pull a Julia Roberts and do some self discovering or something haha. Much love to you all 💕

The man of my dreams broke up with me today. I already balled my eyes out. I’ve vented to my girlfriends about this. But I am still in shock and I feel betrayed. He planned out our whole life and just yesterday he was talking about having kids with me and asked me what I thought if we moved to Hawaii together in a couple years (he grew up there and wants to move back) and broke up w me the next day. Basically at the beginning of our relationship he was curious about how many guys I’ve slept with. I told him it was a high number and I wasn’t ready to tell him. He said that was ok, and to tell him when I’m ready and he wouldn’t pressure me. I finally told him last night and he was surprised. Fast forward to today, he’s upset. He said no one should sleep with more than 10 people. I gave him my reasons but he couldn’t get past it. What now? I’m broken and I’m trying to move on. I’m not posting on here to get slut shamed. I just really need some extra support right now. A little background: I didn’t have sex for a long time after I was sexually assaulted. But after a while I wanted to stop feeling empty and depressed and I did use sex as a coping mechanism and I was always safe. I’m 20 and he’s 26. I think this is all ridiculous. He’s done nothing but show me love since day one so this break up is just so sudden. He once said “people don’t show their true colors at the beginning of the relationship so you never know what you’re getting into” (he said this bc his last gf was supposedly crazy) but I guess in the end I’m glad I was able to see his true colors before we got into much more serious relationship. It just hurts.