Messages from Above

Hey y'all! Just wanted to share this personal statement. Warning you, its long, but worth the read. I have always had really heavy periods and so to keep them away, I was on the Mirena IUD for over 5 years (I had two of them over the course of this time). My husband and I decided we wanted to start TTC and so I had my IUD removed and we got the all clear from the doctor to start trying. After one month of trying and being on the Mirena, my walls were obviously not prepared enough for implantation and I ended up not conceiving this month. We expected that though. The thing we never expected though was the many signs from God we've received over this month verifying to us that he knows our desires and will be fulfilling our want for children. Our first encounter was when my husband wasn't sure he was ready for kids. He knew I wanted them more than anything because I have always said that more than anything in this world, I feel like I was put here to be a mom and that I love children so dearly (oldest of 9, babysitter for 15 years, currently a teacher). So on the way to work, he prayed and the Lord sent him a sign within minutes about children and verifying to my husband that YES it was time for us to have children. Near the first half of the month we began to start seeing or hearing the names we've picked out for our children literally EVERYWHERE we went. Our favorite bible verse is from the book of Isaiah and that bible verse was said on KLOVE nearly every time we turned on the station and for our girl we wanted to name her Emerson and the pastor at our church was doing a series on keeping God in your marriage and suggested we read the book Love & Respect by Dr. EMERSON Eggerichs. Also, laying in bed one night, I noticed our TV was an Emerson TV. The best encounters had yet to come however. I NEVER have dreams. EVER. The last time I dreamed was probably 5 years ago. So imagine how I felt after laying in bed one night up with my usual insomnia and literally in seconds being so over come with sleep. I rolled over, and immediately drifted off when it usually takes me a good 15 minutes. As I shut my eyes, it was the weirdest thing. Even though my eyes were shut, I could see everything in the room. It was like my eyelids were translucent. I suddenly felt this bubbly kind of electricity (it felt nice, not like getting shocked) run through my body and I literally felt my soul detach from my human form and rise into the air. I was slowly approaching the ceiling fan and could hear it louder and feel it's breeze blowing more and more the closer I got to it. I began to freak out and I heard the Lord speak INTO me. I heard Him in my chest, not with my ears. He said, "Trust in Me." I began to calm down and He moved me beside the fan. It was like all of a sudden the room was the same but it was years into the future and there was my husband, changing the lightbulb in a different fan than what we have now, but in our room. Standing at his feet was a little boy with dark brown hair like my husband's and was about 4 years old. In walks a girl with dark brown hair, like my husband's but slightly curly on the bottom like mine and was about 8. I slowly drifted into my body. That was my first dream of our children. A few weeks later I was struggling with understanding the lord's timing and cried my soul out to Him. I trusted He would provide, but I'm not a patient person, and I know He is teaching me to be patient, but everything He has blessed us with within the 5 months we've been married has been in preparation for children. He blessed us with a 3 bedroom house right next to the land we already own, two houses down from my in-laws, which I love, and 3 minutes from my work. This gives us access to childcare help, (next to mother in law who runs a daycare and can take our child with her to work while I'm teaching and my husband is working in another county) and a huge yard to make memories in since we now have two connected pieces prices of property. He also blessed me with a new Jeep Liberty which is a massive upgrade from the short tiny clown car I was driving which is not impact safe, roomy enough to drive with a child, and also constantly breaking down. I was discouraged and wanted a child so badly. This has always been the biggest desire of my heart. That night, again, I laid in bed awake and was overcome with sleep. I felt the Lord speak into me and say "Sleep" so I did. Again I was sucked from my human form and the Lord stood before me. I saw His outline but couldn't see His features. He glowed so brightly. He placed an image in my mind. It looked like a silent film. In it was the little girl with dark slightly curly hair. This time she was about 3 and was coloring pictures in her coloring book at our dining room table. The Lord spoke to me and said, "This is your daughter." I slipped back into my body after that. Until I had met my husband I had always said I WANT a boy first, but I remember the conversation I had with him about children the first time we talked about it years ago when we were first dating and I told him, "I don't know why, but I have this feeling that if we had kids, it would be a girl first." Every time we have mentioned kids BEFORE my dreams, we would always say "she". Now we know the Lord has a girl in store for us and I am more patient now than ever and totally trusting in both what He will do, but also when He will do it. I know that even though I'm on my period, that it will probably be next month I conceive as the Lord is preparing my heart, my soul, and my body to be a mother, and wouldn't have given us this many blessings in preparation for children without following through. I trust that the Lord will bless us with our perfect Emma and eventually our little Isaiah. Have faith ladies and give it to God. He will provide you with the exact desires of your heart.

*****UPDATE*****

Sure enough I ended up conceiving in November around my birthday, literally within days of making this original post, and I’m currently 15 weeks pregnant. My husband and I went to a 3D Ultrasound last Saturday and we found out our baby is a GIRL!!!!!!!! Just like the Lord said in my dreams! He is so GOOD!!!! Don’t EVER stop believing in Him and praying for your little angels. 💕