pretty upset

so May of 2017 my boyfriend and i have been ttc but nothing never goes right at all AF started today wasnt looking forward to see her ass until next year😭😭 i just dont know what to do we tried a couple weeks ago that whole time in like i hope it happen i hope it come true we have picked out names and all and it hurts that i cant for some reason im only 23 i have a 5 yr old son already but after i had him 6 weeks came and i got the depo shot i stop getting the shot bout 4 years ago i believe i seriously need help

im just ready to give up on it at this point like thats all i want to do is complete my little family i dont understand why i cant😭😭😭