So I just got my test results back..and I am super depressed...definitely without a doubt have gestational diabetes 😔 my levels were off the charts 😔 I'm feeling like a complete failure and hating my body...I had GD with my first pregnancy and it couldn't be controlled with only diet and exercise...so I had to take medication and then later insulin too...I have a fear of needles so the constant poking and prodding gave me soooo much anxiety throughout my pregnancy...I literally got depression and anxiety!

I was hoping that somehow I wouldn't get it this time..bt that's not the case. I'm already going through a tough time right now because of a tragic death in the family and still have not gotten over it and now this is just adding to all the stress...I'm constantly in a state of stress...it feels like nothing is going my way in this pregnancy 😔 I haven't had even one normal pregnancy😔

Another issue for me is that I was going the midwife route this time but the hospital they deliver at is far from my home..there's a hospital close to my place like 5 mins away...bt they have limited spots for midwife assisted patients...so I don't know what to do...in a couple weeks I won't have access to a car and I can't take an hour long bus ride with a toddler in the winter while being pregnant!! And of course now I will have frequent appointments because of the GD...I don't know what to do 😔

I'm feeling anxious depressed and frustrated with my body for being such a failure...the only thing that has been sort of comforting is food and now I can't even have that properly...

I don't know if this was just a rant or a post for advice...bt would love some support and advice right now😔 feeling completely drained and hopeless😔