I've just been feeling extra sad lately... I just feel like I will never be pregnant. DH and I really thought we were pregnant. He came home feeling really good about it. but negative test after negativr test... I was so sure I was pregnant that there was little room to doubt.. But like always. I open my mouth to someone... I jinx myself. it never fails. He keeps saying wait week, I was spotting on and off for 3 days and weird mucuous (ewcm, tacky, lotiony) evety time i wiped. It almost seems like my Af is trying to start.. i have never been so crushed... like i just keep crying, and crying and crying. I know crying doesn't help or make it happen. It doesn't even make it better. Theres nothing else I can even do except cry. i just feel like i failed my DH.. he sent me a text saying how he hopes I'm pregnant this month, how he wants to have his own child and be able to hold them.. right now i just feel like failed him. I can't even watch my man play with my best friends kids (her man is best friends with my man and we all chill together.) Its been a year and almost 4 months, and we moved into our house almost year ago... the babies room is a room for a dog... I just can't anymore. im sorry i just needed to vent.