My story. You can share your stories below if you’re comfortable too.e

** this is the first time ever saying my story really out loud**

I was at my friends house and she was planning on having a party, he and I were hosting while his parents were out of town. And around 9-10 people began to show up already plastered, I knew a majority of these people so I started to drink and back then I was NOT a light drinker. At about 12-1 am I was so drunk I couldn’t really talk or walk or anything. I told my friend I was going upstairs to his room to go to bed. I passed out after that, next thing I know I feel this pressure like something is crushing me. I slowly began to open my eyes, I saw this boy who I’ve known since the 7th grade on top of me. I began to try to talk to him “please stop” “I begging please. I won’t tell anyone” he just kept going saying “I know you like it, you’ve always had the biggest crush on me” I couldn’t help but cry, I started to ball my eyes out. With him still on top of me. I began to yell for help I swear the louder I got everything sounded farther away. And to this day I always say you could’ve yelled louder, tried to fight harder, told someone. He eventually covered my mouth to keep me from yelling, after he finished he got off of me and whispered in my ear. “ let me know when you wanna do this again, I had fun.” And kissed me on the head. I just rolled over and cried and cried. I ran to the bathroom and took a scorching hot shower but no matter how hot the water was it didn’t make me feel clean. I felt so dirty and worthless. And still so, my nightmares still happen almost everyday. but the worst part is that i became pregnant with his baby but honestly i was so happy being told up to that point i couldn’t have kids. i didn’t tell anyone and just went to a planned parenthood but at 21 weeks i lost my little girl and i had to do it all alone no family or anything. i’d never felt more empty. I’m 18, this happened may 22, 2017. The worst day of my life. If anyone would share there stories below you’re 100% welcome too