Everything was supposed to be perfect everything was supposed to be in order and nothing's going as planned both me and my sons father don't have a job anymore and are touching the money we had saved for him for emergencies I'm stressing out and crying almost every day I barely have any help when I need it the most at certain times all he does is play video games we argue everyday I just don't see the point anymore at all i feel like all this arguing is affecting the baby as well he's barely stopped fussing today except when he's in my arms I'm so tired of this I'm so tired of his father not growing up and realizing the things an adult has to be doing he's not even home right now he's been out since 4pm it's now almost 12am I'm so tired of this I'm so tired of this my son deserves better and if I can't provide that what's the point of him being with someone awful when he could be with someone who can provide all he needs I'm just I want to give up I want to give up I'm so tired of constantly crying I'm so tired of it I need help I need help and he should be helping more Than 5% it's not right it's not right for me or the baby I have to clean everyday I have to do laundry I barely sleep I expected to be okay not this broken mess I am now I want to care for my son and not be irritated and stressed every day I just wish this was easier I wish he understood this and I know I know he's doing his best in his head but he's capable of more I'm just more mad at the fact that he was raised on the streets his mother didn't care and now I'm the one having to be an asshole to my own boyfriend to try and make him get on the right path and he's still not doing that he's spending the baby's savings on his family and not caring that we have no income source I can't even go back to work for another 6 weeks and I don't want my son in daycare so young but I feel like it has to come to that because I'm the only one who can be an adult I just god I just wish things weren't completely messed up