Today is gonna be a good day 😪❤️

idk about the rest of you moms, teenagers or not but my life is really hard & when i first got pregnant good days seemed rare. not even because of the nausea & throwing up or worrying when you first find out. when i first found out i was pregnant i wasnt upset, im only 19 but i really didnt mind, i knew automatically that i was keeping it, i knew it would be hard, i knew for now on i had to save all my checks because now i was responsible for providing for another life & yes i have goals in life, im still pursuing & going to school. i just thought now i have someone i have to put before me. that was the easy part. the hard part was telling my family. my mom is a single mom & i have 6 sisters from her. &i; am the oldest, we have 2 other sisters from our dad theyre 21 & 19, and the 19 year old she is pregnant too. & me and my sisters knew about her before we knew about me. then when i found out about me i felt like i let my family down. i dont think there is anything wrong with being a teenage mom i really dont, but for my sisters to see both of their 19 year old sisters pregnant. if i couldve waited until i at least had a career i wouldve, but i just didn't want them seeing the both of us & making it a goal to have a baby at 19 or being 19 ttc. then im my moms oldest daughter & i just knew she wouldve wanted me to wait. when i finally told them it was silent & for a little while the days around here seemed longer. i felt like when i came in the room everyone stopped talking, i really felt like i let everyone down & i was so ashamed of myself. especially because when i told them no one said anything, i didnt know where we stood or how they felt & i just felt like a failure. then my first appointment my mom asked if she could come she said she wanted to be there & it made me feel good that she did. then when we heard the babies heart beat she teared up and she grabbed my hand. and i cried because i thought my mom was so mad at me. the day of my first ultrasound my little sisters had school off for PD (professional development) & they came with me & it was just us because my mom had to work. & they were so happy to see the ultrasound and when the nurse said it was a boy they all passed the ultrasound around & they were arguing over who was gonna keep the pictures & i think the nurse mustve noticed heard them so she printed out 7 pictures & when we were going home they just decided theyd let me pick which one i want first then split the last ones if i let them. but i knew my mom would want one so i just took a picture of all of them & i gave them to them. today my mom had to go to work & she came in my room & sat on the side of my bed she was rubbing my hair then i woke up & she gave me a bottle of water & said she's proud of me & she knows im gonna do what i need to & she loves me. then i wake up & before i bring my little sisters to school every morning i always get a bottle of ice tea or orange juice. today my little sisters didnt have school again, veterans day, thank you to any of you who might've served or know anyone who did ❤️💙. but my little sister shes 10 she came in my room & woke me up & said ice tea or orange juice. & that made me happy i love my family & i thought i really lost them at furst