So I️ had posted earlier about regretting the decision to not speak my mind about wanting to keep the baby when I️ had to abort it 6 months ago. I’m having a very hard time coping with this and the guilt eats at me. Everyone I’ve talked to about this said I️ was a good decision I️ made but I️ can’t help but feel like God will never look at me the same. Sometimes (I️ know this is fucked up) I️ want to poke a hole in a condom and get pregnant by my boyfriend again. Just so I️ can feel like I’m in control for once. He decided something huge and traumatic for my life. Am I️ wrong for feeling this way? I️ need advice.