Idk why I cannot leave ... I hate him so much. Long story short he hit me again he was driving and grabbed me by my hair then tried to bang my face on the center council . My 10 month old was in the back seat. Screaming car swerving. I tried to fight back but that only made it worse. I was crying telling him to get out of my car and he wouldn't I was screaming sayin your going to jail he then did it again , I got away from his grip then he raised his fist to me to my face said he is gonna knock my teeth out . He threw his phone at me it hit my hand now my hand is all swollen n black n blue when it hit me I screamed and he grabbed my mouth to keep me quiet. Says he hates me , I'm a whore, go suck nigger dick, I ruined his life , he kept screaming see what you did ? See what you did bitch ? Like it's my fault.... he smashed my car radio . He was screaming speeding I just stared off into space idk why I do this but I do when he belittles me I just sit there n take it which makes him super mad so then he says if you didn't answer me I'm slamming this car into the tree he starts speeding doing like 80mph in a 25 zone heading for a tree. My sons in the back ..... idk what to do . Yeah leave him but I'm pregnant and he supports the family . He won't let me work and if I did I couldn't pull the bills off by myself. I'm stuck . I went to police. He has a felony warrant for his arrest but I'm also pregnant again. I went to get an abortion but couldn't do it . I guess I'm just waiting for the police to catch him so he will go away and there is nothing I can do about it. It's weird I have these moments where I'm strong but they quickly fade .... I guess I will keep documenting everything . Take pics all that n write down what happen .... we were fighting about his lying ... so I got my ass whooped yet again for saying something .... I should of never got back w him... I just needed to vent I have no one and I'm not allowed to see my family.....so I sit here chunks of hair falling out , bloody ear hand swollen black b blue hoping it didn't break . He's a bully. Also he knows about warrant he is saying I have to go in there and tell them I'm lying , mind you he has priors ... he beat my ass while 7 months preggo .... thus is really a long post I know leave but it's easier said than done. I'm afraid and get this after he did what he did he acts like everything is normal goes to the kitchen makes waffles for himself and sit down turns on tv and eats. I'm sick to my stomach. I keep praying to god to Help me end this save me . In the mean time I'll just continue to document everything n pray he doesn't kill me or Hurt me or my son ... I feel like a horrible mother :( n tbh I don't want the baby I'm carrying I feel horrible