So Freaking Angry

I don't know if it's being sick or sleep deprived or what is going on, but I am just so angry today. I am so done.

We found out we had bed bugs a little over a week ago from one of our neighbors. We threw out our mattress and couch just in case because we couldn't find where they were hiding. The exterminator came and will inspect again in a few days to see if they're gone, but I've been so aggravated without a comfortable place to rest or sleep. Oh and the anxiety of being bitten while I'm sleeping to wake up to horribly itchy bites that no one else in my household seems to get. Then I got really sick and have that added misery on top of it all.

I have a two year old and a 7 month old who also got sick and the younger one is teething. I wanted to start potty training my older son and sleep training the younger one since I get no help at night because my husband's job.

I'm mad because in throwing out our furniture, my husband thinks he can just redesign our house in old Asian style where everyone sits on the floor. We've never had a dining table since our son was born because we didn't have the space, and as a result he is a nightmare in restaurants and doesn't know how to sit and eat his meals. I don't find it comfortable to sit on the floor and I don't want to hurt him because he really got his hopes up.

I quit my job last week so that we weren't burdening our family with having to watch the boys all the time and last-minute. I wanted to start working on a new routine where I could start taking better care of myself because I have been diagnosed with anxiety and depression.

I thought my husband would be switching into his new position at work to be able to handle the bills, but it keeps being put off and I just want to give up doing our finances because we're in so much debt.

I'm so demotivated now and I know these are all small things that could have solutions, but I'm just tired of it all and so done. Thanks for letting me vent. . .the last person I would want to take this all out on is my loving husband. But I only have one friend so it's likely that that would happen.