I came to the realization today that it's about time that I give up TTC. Most of the woman TTC have difficulty because of a health issue. My issue is that for some reason my husband seems to have no desire to be with me intimately. It has been almost a year of him saying that he wants to have a baby but constantly making excuses for not doing the deed. I have a kidney transplant and next month marks the 4th year of my transplant. I was told that I have 5 years to try to conceive where it would be safe for my kidney. Well, my time is pretty much up and my hope is completely gone. Not only do I have literally no self esteem left, I am trying to cope with the fact that I may never get the chance to have a baby. It has been a pretty rough day to say the least.