Miscarriage at 11 weeks

I️ was supposed to find out the gender on Thanksgiving. And at my doctors appointment on Wednesday the 15th when looking a for a heart beat my baby no longer had one. I️ was devastated. I️ really never thought anything like this could happen to me. I️ had to have surgery yesterday to have my uterus cleaned meaning they took baby and everything else out. I’m so scared to try again. I don’t think I️ will be able to go through this again.. but I️ really want to start a family. I️ need this rainbow baby..