Ready to ttc again

We miscarried in February at 15 weeks which was devestating but now I'm ready to try again, i dream about having a baby every night and think about it every day and I know that I'm ready but my so is not but he just won't tell me instead finds excuse sad to why we can't " i thought you were happy at work" making it all on me. I've tried so hard to find out the real reason but he's just closing himself up which makes me think he is just being kind of selfish... Yet when I mention getting the pill he flips out and tells me not to be stupid... I just have no idea how to read him anymore... They say women are confusing