I always pictured my TTC journey differently.. I’m not talking about the repetitive rejection of only having 1 line on that pregnancy test. but how i constantly feel like i want this so much more then my fiancé does. We’ve been together for a little over 3 years now, same sex couple .

I am not the one planned to carry.

She has another child from a previous relationship (10 year old girl) whom she has split custody with currently. We have been tracking and seeing RE’s on and off for a year now. The last RE we saw was a male and she just acting so weird about it. ( but why agree to go then) He had asked to take a quick ultra sound and she refused...blamed it on the fact that it was bc he was a male. but i really liked him he gave us so much usefully information & got us set up to get blood work done was trying to get us going as fast as possible with trying our first <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IUI</a>.

A year ago we saw a female RE she didn’t ask for an ultra sound, but was extremely slow i felt like with trying to get this TTC going!

I feel as if she just makes up excuses to keep delaying this..now for example we’re waiting for open enrollment(next month) so she can get better insurance with a lower deductible. 🙄

Every time we look at donors on cryobank websites (it’s always bc i bring it up). she never brings it up. i’m the one always on these apps and googling TTC tips and info never her....

I feel very sad and angry and not knowing if it’s really bc he was a male and she felt uncomfortable or bc shit was getting real and she backing out? i bet she didn’t act like this the first baby she had...