Any newly pregnant feel fat & larger than life?

Courtney • Wife to💍Superman, Mom of 5 💙💚💜🧡🐶🐱🐱

So to start I'm due with Baby #4 July 30th 2017, so pregnancy is far from new to me however every pregnancy is different. My issue is I wasn't expecting us to get pregnant so soon I wanted to lose some weight before we got pregnant (I figured and was told by my OB it could take awhile because of the Nexplanon). Well I'm now at the heaviest weight (gained quite a bit with the Nexplanon) I've ever been (203lb).

I want to try to make this a very healthy pregnancy (had issues with Gestational Diabetes in my first pregnancy) so in a way I want to lose some weight while pregnant so I'm not put in so many "risk" categories. One issue is that my husband is goofy in the aspect that he wants me large and pregnant which ISN'T my style (no offense). I just feel gross and feel like my pants aren't fitting so much anymore, and yes I know in the beginning of pregnancy you can experience quite a bit of bloating but I don't like that this is my case.

So I guess I'm looking for some advice on how to do this, my family as a whole will be going to a health club and starting some classes at the beginning of the new year so I figure the fitness piece I can totally deal with once I get clearance from my OBGYN of course. But the eating part is going to be the worst since well I'm pregnant and feel like I'm always hungry. So if any of you amazing ladies have any advice or help you can give would be greatly appreciated! ❤️