I am on hospitalisation leave as I have been feeling very poorly and not sleeping much.

This is my first day of a 3 month stretch and I am so grateful for it as I have the chance to move slowly and prepare the kind of food I want to be eating.

I had to work though, from 10am till 4pm then it was minor but pressing chores that feel never ending.

I need to meet more people and somehow find a way to not stress about the so-many-things-to-do feeling.

(For context, I'm feeling low as my husband is ill.

I am also stressing about finances as we had several bouts of scares and complications which are behind us now, but were expensive to solve.

My job had no proper break times and ran 13 hrs so I am finally able to eat the way I want as I now have time to prepare and cook.

I have an estranged mom who is always dissappointed in me so for my sanity, I try to avoid her, but she regularly engages in passive aggressive text messaging to let me know how she thinks I am falling short.)

I know that this is the upswing and things will start to look up but today feels like a bit too much.

#positivevibes