I really want to be in love

I’m almost 19 and ive never been in a relationship and I’ve never had sex, I’ve only kissed 2 people and both times weren’t very good (although I have nothing else to compare it to). I feel like I’m missing out on life and I want to know what it feels like to be in a relationship and be in love and to meet someone that I’m comfortable enough with to be vulnerable with them. But I’m so scared to put myself out there and I don’t know how to even go about it. Do you guys have any advice?