Hate where my life’s going.

Constantly arguing with fiancé.

I know we’ll never agree on anything with the baby.

Only 11 weeks pregnant and already dreading the rest of my pregnancy.

I’m not looking forward to moving in with him.

All I want to do lately is cry.

Had a break down last night. Just the worst feeling of my life.

I’m not happy.

I feel like it would be easier to raise my kid on my own without the arguing and shit.

Tired of him throwing “we aren’t ready for a baby” or “our relationship isn’t ready”

I’m ready. I have to be. He’s clearly not.

I finally told him he needed to quit saying that because it wouldn’t change the fact it’s happening. Just because YOU aren’t ready doesn’t mean it’s going to just be like “oh. Okay they aren’t ready so let’s freeze our growth and wait for Daddy to be ready.”

🤦🏼‍♀️

But then he’ll say he’s excited and can’t wait.

He likes to say these things when I express how I feel about something that he doesn’t like or agree with.

I’m suppose to be moving In today and he’s already planned to sleep on the couch!

Because he doesn’t want to wear pajamas. Which all I said is I would prefer he did.

Didn’t say this part but it’s why I’d prefer he did.

Because I know he gets horny for no reason when he’s naked. 😒

And I have zero sex drive and no intention of forcing myself to have sex when I 1 don’t want to and 2 am already in pain from the pregnancy. I have scoliosis and a tilted pelvic bone.

Which is causing pain into my upper and middle back along with down into my thighs.

Which he already knows.

I’m not happy because I express how I feel. He says sorry then repeats the same shit over again.

He says I need to grow up .... But I’m the one talking about saving up money, start a college fund, stop spending on things we don’t need.

Quit thinking about myself.

Have to change everything I do to be healthy for the baby.

While he gets to keep drinking and smoking weed and running around with friends and blowing money on stuff he doesn’t need but just wants.

He’s our only means of income :/

Along with his daddy’s money.

He’s 22 🤦🏼‍♀️

I just needed to rant. Sorry it’s so long.

No one else is listening to how I feel. Everyone is blaming hormones or saying I’m over reacting. It’s how I FEEL. :(