can my son be here already?

im just so lost at this point... this year has really been the worst... dealing with physical, mental, verbal, pretty much every single type of abuse from my ex, all while i was pregnant btw... him cheating on me and getting kicked out of the house we got together, and then him not claiming our son anymore after we broke up, to now just feeling so lost and alone.. every single person around me is in a happy relationship or happy marriage and im just here alone pregnant, hurting soo bad, because the man i once loved and adored more than anything turned out to be a complete monster.... it's only been a little over a month since we broke up, so everything is still pretty fresh in my head.. i just dont understand why im going through all of this and why i cant just be happy 😭 my son is the only thing in this entire world i have to look forward to, but his due date seems to be soo far away.. 😕