I have to snap the fuck out of it

Every other weekend and every holiday my bd is mr. family man other than that he he ghost .... after a 7yr relationship he begin seeing his mistress that he had been seeing they were mad at each other for a few months (she post everything on social media) but I’m assuming they are back on because she added his initials with an ❤️ in her bio....he spent the day with my family today at the home we use to share. And he’s now in bed with me and our 11 month old but I’m so angry I wanna ask him to leave she’s a Jehovah witness so she doesn’t care if she’s not around for holidays... I have to really do better because Now I’m all in my feelings because I know they are still messing around like well wtf are you doing over my house 😞😞

*No disrespect to anyone’s religion I know she doesn’t celebrate any of the holiday we celebrate I believe she refers to them as “Man made” she when the holidays are here she doesn’t mind that he’s not spending time with her or that she isn’t invited over to his family’s house...This woman knew about me knew that we were living together knew that we’ve made not one but two children in the time that they’ve been “seeing” each other I’ve spoke to her (not even being disrespectful) so she is/was fully aware of me so she was in fact a MISTRESS played her part to the fullest and once I found out I kicked him out of my home (I was 15 weeks pregnant) then I got all he back story and