Please help

I’m awaiting my results from the doctor and I am unsure if I have genital herpes but I do have all the symptoms. I don’t have a fishy smell or abnormal discharge down there, so is it still possible that I may have genital herpes regardless? Long story short I had protected sex but receive unprotected oral sex/fingering and been itching a day after that. This is already devastating to me, and honestly this makes me realize why so many people commit suicide and others wonder why! There’s no support system out there for us and there’s this stigma about STI/STD. I just need advice please