So I am 18 years old. I was raped for two years by my step brother who is ten years older than me. That was my first sexual experience ever. He never told me not to tell my parents or anything but I just kind of didn’t. When I first started watching porn nothing turned me on besides something called “Family Strokes” or something related to that. I feel so disgusting and gross. Am I the only one who feels this way?? Now that I am in a physical and emotional relationship with my SO I feel like I always want him to take control. I just feel so gross and like I’m so alone in this.