I feel so a lone...

So my husband is a truck driver. He's been over the road for the last 6 months and only comes home once or twice a month. For two years all I've been able to think about is a baby after my MC. I think I've literally pushed or driven away any friend I've had. I'm so tired of charting and testing. My husband just doesn't understand why I'm so depressed. I try to talk to my friends but they just don't get it. Or they think I'm being "too hard on myself and I just need to relax". People constantly ask if I want to have another baby or tell me I need to be more grateful for my son. Which I am very grateful for my son but I wish I was a little older. Now I'm older and ready and nothing! I grew up as an only child and my whole life I said I'm going to be a big family. I'm just looking for other women TTC who get where I'm coming from and please no negativity.