i need some advice 😭

well I really don't know where to start. my relationship has been Rocky as f***. I've been hit punch slapped pushed chocked n head slammed into things. but I stayed. I know stupid right.. we moved into his mom's house n we haven't stopped fighting. going from a 3 bed room to living in a small ass bed room n living in a apartment with 4 other people. 6 all together.

well two nights ago I found text messages to this girl who told me that I need to die and Im just a waste of space n making really bad life threats. but any ways. he told her that he could do many things to her and make chock on his dick. then when she asked about me. he started getting short with her. then he started tellin her that he's not trying to fuck this relationship up. but then this morning. I didn't want sex. he took it. while I said no. and I just lid there. a year ago in October I was raped really bad. and that's all that played in my head. but when I told him he didn't bother to listen!

some one please give me advice. idk what to do anymore