Long post, sorry 😅

Does anyone else ever just want a baby so bad for so long but then one night sit and think about the current situation you’re in and second guess it? My husband is in the USMC and still has two years left and will be going on deployment next summer and I’m just stuck between a rock and a hard place. We both want to have a baby as soon as possible but we also both want him to be here for everything so we know that’s not possible. We’re based in CA and everything is so expensive out here so one month we have a few hundred dollars saved and the next we’re saving less than $100 to last us for over a week, ya’know? I know if we did get pregnant that we would definitely budget everything better.. idk, I guess I’m just over analyzing everything... anyone else ever go through this too?