Working out, just tracking, to be on not to be, just being weird

I've been tracking for a couple months now; so I guess I'm kinda new. I'm working out every night. Lifting weights and doing cardio. Trying to get below 200, been at 225 for 4 years; now got down 210 in the past month 😀. I'm at stay at home mom so the gym is a nice break. Also trying to beat genetics. Getting my body back. I'm just using glow track. Not really ttc. Only pulling out for birth control. We we were kicking around the idea of having a 3rd, but now not sure. We have 2 girls. 2 year old is ours the 9 is mine from another relationship. Been married 2 years. We live in a 2 bed room. (We figured out how to make it work.) I'm going to be 30 in October!! I still have all the baby - baby gear. Idk. I'm having secound thoughts. My husband said says I'm being weird and too young to feel this way.