Bummed ☹️ update

I have a history of failed pregnancies.. one miscarriage and one tubal we had to force miscarriage. I was told I would never get pregnant without medical help and that my chances of ever carrying to term were low... well November I found out I was pregnant naturally 😊 my little miracle baby with the most amazing man I could have ever asked to have placed in my life. We are so over the moon to have this little miracle growing inside of me but are waiting to announce until 13 weeks. I’m about 7-8 weeks pregnant and have my first ultrasound on Wednesday but now I’m pretty nervous for that ultrasound. We had had sex a week or so ago and I had pink spotting right after which went away followed by some cramps and back pain. So to be safe we are waiting to be intimate until we get the obgyn ok to do so. Today after last night having cramps and back pain again I went to the restroom and had brown spotting. I’m so worried.

Update: well the brown spotting had stopped and for a few hours there was nothing so I calmed down.. then it turned to pink spotting off and on and soon blood red. Still spotting but it’s red which is not a good sign 😞 now I’m having bad cramps and back pains. So much for my miracle baby... I just wish I could have one baby. I don’t care if it’s a boy or girl just a healthy living baby is all I want and yet again life plays a horrible cruel joke on me saying “hey congratulations you’re pregnant!” And ripping my child away from me just like that... in the blink of an eye...