Overcoming!

So this year has been completely filled with hurt, loss, turmoil, heartache and the list goes on and on. For many years I struggled with an alcohol addiction and in March of this year I moved in with my bf which turns out he was a cheater. We were constantly fighting, he would not come home at night, I found flavored oral gel on the top shelf of his closet. After being sober for a month I relapsed and started drinking the biggest mistake of my life and I drove my car and ended up wrecking it in the side of a mountain. That was an eye opening experience for sure. At the time I was I guess 2 days pregnant cause I found out 3 weeks later that I actually was when i did not know it then. I ended up staying with him after the accident because I had nowhere to go. Please understand this I have worked my ass off for many years even tho I battled this addiction, I actually worked as an EMT and was in the process to be a firefighter. When this man came into my life he toom what little I had left of my soul and ripped it into pieces. He is a severe Narcissist and made me feel like the tiniest person in the world. Fast forward a few weeks I ended up losing the baby and he kicked me out the same day. I was homeless staying in motels but lucky enough to have a job. Fast forward a little more I end up moving in with a roommate and in July I lost my dear mother to lung cancer. Fast forward a little more I had a weak moment and had sex with that sorry piece of shit and got pregnant and am now 10 weeks...and what a surprise I have not seen or heard a whisper from him.. I have since gotten myself back into church and have been sober since July. I have been slowly picking up the pieces of my life from the mess I created. And what he destroyed inside of me ive been trying to put back together. So Satan is a bastard as we all know. That night i got into my accident the officer did not take me to Jail but last Thursday I recieved Court papers for this and now have to appear 12/27. I have an amazing Job now and am the most stable ive been in a long time then get hit with this. More than likely Im going to do some time in jail I think the max will be 30 days. Just struggling with this a little, I know this is my fault and I shouldn't have done it but I also believe that one we make that decision to give our lives to God satan tries to intervene. I will not give into him. I want every one of you girls to know that if I can get through my life and my issues so can you and i will be raising this child alone. There is so much more to my story trust that. Maybe one day I will write a book. I do know that my testimony is not done. Last sunday my pastor told me God is going to do miracles in your life, that he is ripping it apart right now but is also going to bless me in the end. I beleive this.